Thursday, September 16, 2010

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Let me introduce myself...again.

Wow, it's been awhile. So much has gone on in the past year since I posted. I can now understand why people sometimes don't blog for awhile. Sometimes life just gets in the way and it takes all ones energy and strength to just keep going on. Mike's lengthy unemployment and different health issues I had to deal with just sapped me for awhile. But God has been faithful and has never left me.

I got an anonymous letter today in the mail. Obviously, I have made someone angry. I did some soul searching as well as turning to God in prayer. He is our healer,you know. If not for His touch, His peace, I wouldn't be writing this now.

I have a confession to make...I am not perfect. I wish I were at times, then I wouldn't make so many mistakes as a human. I made an innocent mistake and got raked over the coals for it. I have already apologized to everyone involved and I still got the letter.

I guess this is where forgiveness comes in. I choose to forgive rather than hang on to this. I hope this doesn't come across wrong. I just don't want to hold onto the hurt caused by the letter. And unforgiveness only causes more pain. My husband pointed out that you, whoever you are, might even get more upset by this and take this as criticism. I hope not, my intention is for healing, not more pain for either one of us.

I wish you had talked to me in person and gotten all the information first hand. I think you would have felt and believed differently.

Wow. It hurt.

It hurt to be attacked and accused and with no opportunity to explain. I pray that I remember this in case I am ever on the other side of something like this. I hope I remember to show mercy, give the person the benefit of doubt, and believe the best.

Time will only tell.